Trust me. I know what I'm doing...

“I know what I'm doing. I have it all planned out--plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for. When you call on me, when you come and pray to me, I'll listen. When you come looking for me, you'll find me. Yes, when you get serious about finding me and want it more than anything else, I'll make sure you won't be disappointed--GOD's Decree--I'll turn things around for you. I'll bring you back from all the countries into which I drove you--GOD's Decree--bring you home to the place from which I sent you off into exile. You can count on it.” Jeremiah 29:11-14 (The Message)

"I know what I'm doing..." How many times have I heard that? :o) That statement is usually followed by a trip to the emergency room or a visit from the fire deparment. The truth is God DOES know what He's doing. He's God! This is a tough lesson that I'm having to learn lately. I like what Jackson Senyonga said this week: "He is I AM because we're not!" We don't always understand His ways, His reasons, His timing. But He is a holy God who knows what He's doing. He has plans--good ones--plans not to harm us. Plans to give us a hope and a future. It just takes a while for me to believe Him sometimes.

That's how I feel about staying home with the kids soon. I'm totally freaked out about it. I know that it's the right thing to do. I know that's what He's told me to do. I'm just scared. I'm trying to figure out how we're going to make it with one income--how I'm not going to pull my hair out or be grumpy all of the time. I have to get it in my head that God does have plans for all of this. Good plans. Plans NOT to harm me. Yeah, that means that I may have to live on peanut butter and jelly for a while. Oh, well. :o) (At least I like it.) And it may mean going without somethings that I consider a normal part of life right now. I'm willing to do this though.

He knows what He's doing. He doesn't need my help or my commentary on it all. He doesn't need my worries, yet He still listens to it all. Amazing...